Count your blessings. That's something i need to do more often.. be grateful for what i already have, and what i will have.. and maybe to a certain extent, what i had... well, guess it's the problem with most people.. not knowing when to stop.. dunnoe, just had to say this..

Hmm, think i've been sleeping in lectures too much... way too much.. like almost every lect now.. it's real bad, but real hard to keep my eyes open and mind clear.. arrgh, missing too much work.. it's piling too high.. damn. better do something about it before it's too late..

Woohoo, one more day to holiday.. still dunnoe whether to look forward to it.. yes, it's a break but then.. wow.. Really hope tomolo's class bbq goes well.. come to think about it, i haven't been that close to my class.. will improve the situation.. But, have to clarify, it's really not my fault.. the guys in 3H rox. The girls on the other hand.. hmmm, i can't say the same.. 6 prcs, the rest aren't fun anyway.. so screw it.. can't do anything about this.. guess i'm just screwed-up.. maybe it's my fault.. no, it's not.. Arrrgh

sprewell

In yer face...

I was put here for a reason

When children do wrong, most of the time, it's their parents who suffer the most.. guess they(the parents) should shoulder some of the blame, but then it's the child's fault ultimately..

It's nobody's fault most of the time.. when things go wrong for us.. it's more like a combination of events happening wrongly..

Heads up. That's what my ex-bball coach used to say when we lost or something.. like keep the pride that we tried our best.. I really need to do that now, esp in this strange times.. just feeling a little weird.. kinda lost, but not really.. just that bit confused.

Just realised that there are actually some assholes in my class.. there has to be a couple in every class i think.. but i can live with them.. Was a rather meaningless day in sch today.. no bio prac, so did much tut.. got released 40 mins early, that's why got 1hr 20min break.. she refused to bring bio tut forward.. so we had to play some basketball in between.. hmm, ended up stinking the TS, wasn't very nice of us.. haha. Training today sucked.. like no one turned up.. shuit, seems like that's going to be the case most of the time.. really hate it.. if you have no interest, and cannot put in your heart, then screw off.. don screw up our trainings.. really pissed off about the general state of bball in rj.. and i can't fucking do anything about it.

Oh yah, just remembered how funny leong was yesterday.. had to read the name valerie a million times.. damn amusing..

shit, just remembered again that i haven't done my bio tutorial yet.. and i don want to leave a bad impression with the new teacher.. eeeks.

fragmented thoughts:

Feeling major relief... Ha.

Two things i love, eating and sleeping.. absolutely. Always doing one thing or the other.. which means.. haha... Hmm, everything looks so bright.. never felt like that in a long time.. I LOVE ASPHIROX.

I'm scared of the world.

Haha, it's been a good past few days.. Dunnoe why.. Just the general lack of stress i suppose.. which is great, for a change.. or maybe it's the hols coming up.. which actually means shit is just around da corner.. lotsa mugging to be done.. and fun to have.. rite.. This last few days can't pass fast enuff, but then again, it's the most relaxing few days i have had in a long while..

Was a surprisingly good day in school today.. was feeling real high at the end of the day.. then played much floorball after school.. quite fun i must say.. Met my actual bio teacher today.. Mrs. Inge, from indonesia.. she's quite fun i think.. haha, quite joking.. cuz like we were asking her stupid questions like how's her baby.. her husband.. then best was where she's from coz she got this accent.. then she was like "I worked as a maid before".. haha, quite like us.. full of crap.. hope she's a nice teacher cuz i really got too much stuff to catch up on.. really sick of school these days.. don feel like going, quite meaningless these last days before hols..

Real pissed i can't go for RI's founder's day tomorrow.. damn.. why din i get A1 for chem?? then got prize and 100 quid.. not bad at all.. but sigh.. missed out.. and it's held at suntec some more.. crap.. AND they get to fricking miss school.. Screw lah... no use regreting.. but i'm really pissed i din get 1 for chemistry.. screwed up many things. my chem teacher had put so much effort into us.. then i disappointed him.. sad.. look forward.

One more week to breathlessness.. from all that mugging to be done.. can't imagine, don't want to imagine it.. it's scary.. will be the muggiest month so far.. arrgh, scares me.. facing the piles of work, and books.. regreting not paying attention in lect and not doing tut.. damn, still not focused enough, guess it's hard.. surely life's more than this?

I have a problem.. always trying to figure out how others think of me.. always feel so insecure.. it's bad, must have more trust in myself and the ppl around me.. really, life isn't that bad.. the days will seem brighter..
Got some work done this weekend.. must have been the most productive weekend since the start of the year.. attempted to do chem tutorial, realised how much i din know..how much i've missed out.. damn.. at least i tried.. just finished trigo assignment 10a.. real slow.. but making progress, can't wait to get started on tut 10b really.. Anyway, i know why i'm eating so much these days.. coz everytime i think too much or worry about anything, i'll stuff myself with food.. can't control it.. so it's like between lessons, i'll pop by the canteen to grab stuff, which is bad, both for my body and my wallet.. stop this shit.. screw.. wow, this week gonna be real packed.. everyday will reach home late.. my mum will be real pissed.. arrgh.. Oh yah, need to buy chem and phy textbooks by this week so can mug like a shit during june.. i hate how this looks.. doom.... wish me luck.